Still pissed off that my mother cut off my meds. Maybe, when school comes, I'll just be an obnoxious brat and say, "Well, if I didn't need it over the summer, I don't need it now." And fail the whole year. That would hit her where it hurts, but unfortunately, that would also hit me when it hurts. I don't want to be a super-senior. I really need to do well this school year.
So I guess for now, I'm just gonna have to suck it up and live without the medication. I do not envy drug addicts one bit. If withdrawal from a prescribed, fairly average dose of a proactive amphetamine makes me feel this shitty, I can only imagine how shitty recorvering heroin adddicts or alcoholics feel during withdrawal. It's her fault for getting me hooked on the damn stuff anyway. This sucks. I'm tired the moment I get out of bed and hungry the moment I put a dirty plate in the sink. I don't bother going back to sleep or eating (that second one is actually nice) because I know I'll just be this tired and hungry afterwards. I need some thinspo.
To youtube AWAY!
