I talked to one of my other friends that stopped their ADD medication cold turkey, and he said that this mini 'withdrawal' will last 2-4 weeks, depending on how used to it I was. I'd been taking it since last October, but I don't know how much that counts for. The whole situation just makes me sick. Blech. I'm not going to let this be the end of me, though. Tomorrow I will have no more than 600 calories. It's still pretty high compared to what I used to eat, but it's a decent place to start. Plus, my metal DDR pad is coming in either tomorrow or the next day for sure. Then calories won't be such an issue.
When I get to somewhere between 85 and 100 pounds, I'll be ok with my weight. Until then, I gotta suck it up and shut my mouth.
I want to be a freelance model when I'm older, in addition to a freelance artist and musician. I know it seems so unrealistic, but if I work hard and combine those three, then I should be able to make a decent income, right? I've got the art thing down, been doing it since I could hold a pencil. At my school's art show this past year, I won two first place ribbons for Advanced Prismacolor and Advanced Mixed Media, plus the Best of Show. Not trying to brag (failed), but I'm very confident that I will do something with my art. Not so confident about modeling and music. I have about 15 songs written, and next year, my senior year, I'm hoping to record them onto a demo CD and start submitting it to different record labels. It's a long shot, but I gotta start somewhere. Modeling is looking even bleaker, though. I'm 5' exactly, so runway isn't my thing. However, I'm aware of petite modeling and I've got the photo-editing skills to make my face usable. I really want to make them work. Right now, though, I'm just practicing and experiementing with different styles and techniques, in art, music and modeling. Here's a little of what I got so far:
My DeviantArt Account:
http://www.maybeneverso.deviantart.com/
My DA account has a bunch of old and new drawings and photo-edits, in addition to a lot of poems and song lyrics. It's a pretty modest collection, but like I said. I gotta start somewhere. Here are some favorites:
An acrylic abstract paint of a fetus on canvas board
And old graphite portrait of Amy Lee done from a photograph
My Photobucket Album:
http://s863.photobucket.com/albums/ab199/maybeneverso/July%202010-June%202011/
This mostly has experiemental photos. One of me with transgendered make-up, different angles, different temperatures and lighting, different looks and poses. None of these are photos that I would consider putting in a modeling portfolio, but merely pictures to show where I'm at right now. Most have little to no make-up besides the transgendered one. Some more favs:
As you can see, a lot of my self-portrait photographs are less model-ish and more facebook-profile-pic-ish. lol I'm trying to get away from that. Any advice on that, or anything, really, would be welcomed!
Well, I guess that's it for now. Peace~
